Anxiety Wins Again: A Venting Post
I woke with a startle this morning and that should have been my sign to go back to bed and forget all about this day. My anxiety has been through the roof since my appointment on Monday. I've had flashbacks on a loop ever since the pelvic exam that day. Normally, I would have scheduled that appointment for a time when I could take an anxiety tablet beforehand, but I was convinced to just to do it now. It was my husband who convinced me to do it while we were there. Of course, he didn't consider the effects that such an exam would have on me and blindly recommended it anyway. I have a slight resentment with him about that now, but I'm working on processing it and moving on. My state of mind this morning was awful, and I tried to tell my husband that, but before I could, he had already started a fight with me. I was already dealing with anxiety off the charts and my heart was racing, so I know my POTS was acting up, too. My...