Battling the Darkness: A Mental Health Update Post
I've been in a dark place for a few days. I haven't been able to find the words to write about it, so I'm going to try to do so now. I may end up deleting this for the 5,430,503rd time this week. Who knows... Back in 2021, I was seeing a psychiatrist through MultiCare. She was treating me for bipolar disorder but apparently, she thought that I had BPD (borderline personality disorder) , also. She never discussed it with me. She simply wrote it in the notes of my medical chart, clearly not realizing that I read everything that has my name attached to it. She never had a single conversation with me about the possibility of a new diagnosis. It was sneaky and behind-my-back and I don't like people that move like that. I need to be able to trust my providers to communicate with me when there is an issue. I stopped seeing her after that incident and ran from that diagnosis ever since. Last month, my meltdowns started to become...